To My Abuser

To my abuser that raped me and abused me for two nights three years ago, I have forgiven you a long time ago and it took a lot of courage and humility to do so because I hated you for a long time and it got to the point my hatred towards you was consuming me and killing me inside, I had become a toxic and negative person to the point that it caused me to have a panic attack that I thought I was dying. I am forgiving you because God and Jesus want me to and I want to so I can move on. I know you are a very tormented soul because of pass trauma and abuse but remember I never abused you or harmed you if anything I treated you like a human being without agenda or judgment, but I realize now you are not well and it was a demon inside of you that caused you to harm me the way that you did. I pray that God may deliver you from that demon that is tormenting you because you will be alone for the rest of your life. I stood up to you because I wanted you to leave me alone. I wish things would have been different and the situation would have been resolved diplomatically but I know I cannot change the past.
I really hope to God Jesus heals you and you can atone for your sins and atone for what you did to me, my mom and my ex fiancee. As the Bible says love your enemies and pray for those that persecute you. That's what I am doing for you I am praying for you to change.

You Are What You Eat 

If you ever heard the saying, "You are what you eat" there is a lot of truth to that. What we put in our bodies determines if we get nutrients or we get bad calories and junk into our system. Clean Food is fresh fruits and vegetables, whole grains, lean meats, nuts and natural oils. These clean foods keep are bodies going and repairs our bodies and immune systems in order to fight disease and keep ourselves healthy and have maintenance. Dirty Food is all the processed foods that are high in saturated fats, refined sugars and salts and they don't have the nutrients that clean fresh food has so those food have no nutritional value and those are the foods that are making people sick. 

Our bodies thrive by consuming the right foods and our bodies go into a slump when we eat the bad ones, its all about choices we make and those choices have life style consequences. Our country has the worse health problems than any other major developed country and most Americans are not getting the proper nutrition they need, the major factor is economical because of low salaries most lower income families cannot afford basic food to cover their basic necessities and most people choose what is cheaper and cheaper isn't the best. 

Most people don't know that the government heavily subsidizes processed foods while food that is organic and Non-GMO isn't making it more expensive. Its a form of population control so people get sick and people have to rely on doctors and the pharmaceutical companies which could have been prevented through diet and preventive medicine. There is a recent movement in California and its spreading to the rest of the country slowly and many people are getting away from processed foods and turning to clean and raw live foods that is helping them stay healthy and be healthy. 

Eating healthy isn't expensive as most people think and its easy, you can start by buying fruits and vegetables and including them in your daily meals, like fruit for breakfast and vegetables for lunch and dinner and of you are thinking of going vegetarian or vegan mix in enough nuts, seeds and plant based protein into your diet so you won't get sick because of lack of protein in your diet. Drink plenty of water and exercise and take vitamins and most importantly keep stress to a minimum.